So it's been a rough day. I'm not going to lie, this was a bad day, but as always made better by friends. Props to Cassandra and our incredible 2 hour long skype! Anyway, it all started when Dylan, one of the SSS (which I have aptly named Simpson's Shultzstaffle) people asked me to go to the BBQ that night. So, like an idiot, I went. Once I got there, no one talked to me, in fact, they all moved away from where I was sitting. Then, I made one teensy little joke. Sabrina, another Shultzstaffle member, was making fun of a mentor, Junior (who got hammered last night I would like to add) and I made a snide comment, quite jokingly. She proceeded to bite my head off, and with it, most of my confidence. I left, fairly quickly, after that. I couldn't wrap my head around my head why I couldn't make friends with anyone. I was trying so hard, but it felt like the harder I tried, the more I got screwed over in the end. I could feel there annoyance, dislike, and all the other negative emotions strangling me, like an invisible choke hold. I fled, back to my dorm, back to my little safe haven, and pretty much to God. I read my bible, and a verse really hit me, which will be my verse tonight.
Do not be afraid of what you are about to suffer. I tell you, the devil will put some of you in prison to test you, and you will suffer persecution for ten days. Revelations 2:10
Well, I feel like I'm in prison, and my ten days isn't close to up. Keep me going friends!
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