...but I'm gonna anyway. I'm totally not in the mood. I just hope I don't upset anyone with my words, as is the precedent. I... don't feel like I'm well-liked anymore. And these aren't just my, hey-Erick-hear-those-people-whispering-over-there-it's-about-you kinda paranoia I have constantly. No one gives a flip what I have to say anymore. I'm just not feeling it anymore. It's definitely a failing on my part, or at least I think so. I don't know what about me is so off-putting, besides my label of judger, but if you want to enlighten me in a non-mean way, you should definitely text me.
Anyway, I'm just feeling really cruddy right now. I also think I have a different perspective on judging. I take it this way, it stops me from doing things I shouldn't. If I wasn't worried that Matt would judge me, I probably would have gone to Alex's and drank. How's that for bombshell? I was feeling pretty much the same I am now and wanted to do it really badly. And it's Matt's theoretical judgement that stopped me from trying to be accepted in the car by swearing. So, in short, I'm thankful for that. BTW if I ever try to drink, feel free to punch me, granted I said that about flat-bills once upon a time.
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