I am on break! ...and Juror No. 1012?

So yeah, I'm on break. Finals are over, which is AWESOME. I had an okay, if not for Lucas and his general essence of duchebaggery. He decide to leave me at 9 and I had to mop the entire front area of A &W by myself. I'm currently housed in the Brown Residence, with a snoring Erika, playing Words With Friends against Jody (and winning :) watching P.S. I Love You with Kelsey, Matt, and Daryl. I'm so peaceful right now, and it's so amazing. I love break. Although...

I'm really excited for next semester. I have Humanities again, with the most amazing teacher ever. I love a class where I actually learn things. Then, I have a class on Islam, which is with the same teacher. Then I have Women in Religion. Another teacher that I love teaches this, and besides doing Daily Breads, I'm really excited. Lastly, I have Intro to New Testament. I haven't had this teacher yet, but I've heard she's good.

Hang out times? I'm off of work next Thursday, but I don't even know when I'll work next week yet. Let me know, I suppose, if you're doing something.

I've been fighting tears all day

So today started great. I was watching Vampire Diaries on Netflix, reading articles on Cracked.com. All was right with the world. Then, at 12:30, my world effectively ended.

You see, earlier my grandma had called me, and she was worried because my mom hadn't called her, or answered her phone all day. I wasn't too worried, but my grandma insisted on sending grandpa over there. I got a call from her at 12:30. My mom had had a breakdown, and she went to the hospital. My grandma was on the verge of tears, and I literally sunk to my knees and started bawling. My mom keeps saying crazy things, and I'm so upset. I don't know what to do other than blog. I just spent 3 hours at the hospital, only to be turned away. So, I can't see her, the doctors don't know what's going on. After I cried, I felt numb. I don't know what to do. Why is this happening? Why now?

Sick Day

So I'm sick. I'm kinda hoping I'm still sick tomorrow too, so then I don't have to get up for my 8 o'clock class. I essentially spent all day watching Death Note and Power Rangers: Lost Galaxy on my Netflix... I feel kind of lame. Anyway, luck would have that I didn't work today, and all of my classes were essentially pointless. I love how whenever I have an easy day is when I'm sick. Well, whatever.

Dustin, where is my logo!? I'm just kidding, although I do want to see any progress... Well, that's all from me.

P.S. Chrissy and Matthew both need to post more. My narrowed eyes are looking at you, because I know you read this.

I'm tired and cranky...

Ok, not so much the second. Maybe... Whiny? Yep, that's it. I don't wanna do a paper! It's exhausting. And I have to do three BEFORE THE END OF THE WEEK!!! Well, that sucks. Anyway, quick weekend recap.

So Friday night I hung out with good old Lindsay. It was pretty fun, although I was the sarcastic recluse in the corner... although I did win at Just Dance 2 (Wake Me Up Before You Go-Go) against one of her friends. We then watched Bridesmaids, which I laughed at wayyy to much. Anyway, there was a scene at the beginning that wasn't really... well, it was tamer than Drive Angry at least (lol so funny that movie was TERRIBLE. I'm Nicholas Cage. I have to get her back.) Props to anyone who read that in a monotone voice. ANYWAY the rest of my weekend was BORING. I didn't have anything to do at all. I played xbox for the first time in a week today, but it wasn't that great. Lastly, Dustin needs to give me his rock songs to listen to (because I'm delaying rap) So, with that, good night blogger stalkers.

Umm......

HOW DOES EVERYONE KNOW ABOUT MY CRUSH?!?!?!?!

...gah. I don't even like her that much anymore...

I'm thinking of a Wal-Mart run...

So, I'm out of clean pants. Not that you care, but I think I might go to Wal-Mart for some... I'd buy myself some cargo pants of course... Not that anyone knows yet about my secret. You see, The reason that I prefer pants over shorts (and cargo pants above jeans) is because I like to stash useful things in the pockets, like flashlights, batteries, and other things useful in crisis. Why do I do this? I HAVE NO FRICKEN CLUE. But, eh. It's always fun to do. So, I didn't add any new songs today, just solidified my enjoyment in others. Well, I"m off to Wal-Mart... maybe get an iTunes card?

Spinach and My Savior

Youth! I love me some youth. Not in a creepy, pedophile way, but youth GROUP. It's so amazing sometimes. Anyway, I found out today that I like spinach, because it is delicious. Yay trying new things! Tomorrow is lettuce round two, today I tried it with olives and ranch, and it was kinda nasty. Anyway, the following have been added to the list of acceptable country songs

Better Life
I Run to You

Yep, that's it. And any hated songs...

...Well there aren't any. (although beer for my horses almost made this list)

I don't know why I'm in such a good mood lately. Maybe it's the whole eating better thing(although it's only really been making me hungry and tired), but I think it's the letting go of irrational hatreds that I have, and finding myself a bit. Not to sound cheesy, but isn't that kinda what college is about? Shoot, I just remembered all my clean pants I left at home. Oh well. Quick edit, I'm adding something below to the accepted list that just came on.

Lookin' For a Good Time

Me Gusta Lady Antebellum. Help, I'm turning into a country fan!

Country Music Update

So this whole "country music week" has kinda been alright. I've already cheated (I listened to my iPod on the way to work) but listening to different music makes me appreciate my favorites all the more. Anyway, so far I have selected a few songs that I enjoy, hereby ending my hatred of country music.

Barefoot, Blue Jean Night
I Told You So
Austin
Honeybee
When I Get Where I'm Going
Online (HILARIOUS)
What Was I Thinkin'
I Don't Want This Night To End (stuck in my head ALL DAY)

So I don't think I'll add any of these to my iPod, but they are perfectly ok in my country playlist. I'm going to keep listening to the radio, because it's the best way to hear newer songs, but this list will keep my sanity. Alternatively, here is my, O-M-G-This-Is-Like-Rebecca-Black-And-Justin-Beiber-Had-A-Baby, list.

Camoflage

Yep. It's the only one. The rest could be categorized as Eh, a category I would put things like ET and Alejandro. They're not really good, but you can listen to them. I'll be sure to keep the list update.

One more word on Camoflage. IF IT PLAYS ONE MORE TIME I'M BREAKING THE RADIO. I really don't like it. It's annoying. I can be allowed to hate at least one song, right? Eh, I shouldn't say that, there will be more.

I haven't really started on all the Will Ferrel movies I have to watch. I'll get there. But I hold all of my dislike to Anchorman as recent. I will attempt other movies.

So, today was alright, not the best. I could have killed Cole though... Oh, yeah and something happened at work that was pretty funny.

Wes: You got your hands up, you're rocking in my truck
(By now, I'm mouthing the lyrics)
Wes: You got the radio on, you're singing every song
(now I start to sing under my breath)
Me: I'm set on cruise control, I'm slowly losing hope.
Without me noticing, Wes had heard me, and stopped singing
Wes: I thought you didn't like country?

Hence why it was stuck in my head. Alright. I'm going to bed because I'm tired. Tomorrow, I'm typing a paper.

Shoot, I forgot...

I tried lettuce today and I didn't totally hate it. Tomorrow I'm going to try to have a salad. I'm scared of things that are green. In an effort to try new things, I will spend the next week listening to only Country music (except for Wednesday because that's youth) to essentially force myself to see that it isn't all bad. The week after that is rap (someone please save my sanity that week).

I don't want to do this blog...

...but I'm gonna anyway. I'm totally not in the mood. I just hope I don't upset anyone with my words, as is the precedent. I... don't feel like I'm well-liked anymore. And these aren't just my, hey-Erick-hear-those-people-whispering-over-there-it's-about-you kinda paranoia I have constantly. No one gives a flip what I have to say anymore. I'm just not feeling it anymore. It's definitely a failing on my part, or at least I think so. I don't know what about me is so off-putting, besides my label of judger, but if you want to enlighten me in a non-mean way, you should definitely text me.

Anyway, I'm just feeling really cruddy right now. I also think I have a different perspective on judging. I take it this way, it stops me from doing things I shouldn't. If I wasn't worried that Matt would judge me, I probably would have gone to Alex's and drank. How's that for bombshell? I was feeling pretty much the same I am now and wanted to do it really badly. And it's Matt's theoretical judgement that stopped me from trying to be accepted in the car by swearing. So, in short, I'm thankful for that. BTW if I ever try to drink, feel free to punch me, granted I said that about flat-bills once upon a time.

Dear Good Intentions,

Go screw yourself like you did me.
                                     Sincerely, Erick

Ok, I guess. (begin life changing event)

So I bought a hat. A hat not many people like. But I like it.

It's flat-billed.

I didn't think it was possible to feel physical pain from a comment, but I guess what they say is true. A particular someone said something particularly hurtful. I was sad.

But now I'm over it.

Why? Because I'm sick of not doing the things that I want to do. I want to not procrastinate. But I do it. The reverse is also true. I came literally this close )( those are my fingers by the way, to going to Alex's party. Why? I honestly don't know. I just wanted so bad to do something that I didn't really want to do. So now I've formed a game plan.

Lastly, I don't think this hat is going anywhere, because I don't care what you think anymore. If you don't like me because of the hat, well, I don't like you either.

Excellence

I am not trying hard enough.

Tonight at youth, we talked about a lot of things, and it got me thinking. I hate going there sometimes. Today, Wendy asked if anyone would have stood up to the giants (Joshua and Caleb in Numbers) and I was instantly nominated by three people. It hurts, especially when I definitely don't ever stand up to giants. I feel like how everyone sees me isn't right. I hate how Melanie looks up to me like I'm so religious. I hate how I feel every single time I have to agree when all I want to do is ask why. I give religious answers I don't necessarily believe, but that's what the Bible says, so it has to be right. I really don't want anyone to look to me as role model, because I'm doing a crappy job.

Should I try more? Do I even feel the same anymore? I don't know. I've asked myself what my reasons are for this whole thing. I grew up with God looming over my head. Is all I want salvation? I don't know. All I know is I have to keep moving, otherwise I'm dead in the water.

Stupid college. I didn't think before this. I hate it when Wendy is right.

.........

I'm tired. I really need sleep. The only thing keeping me going this week is going to Matt's play. Whoopee. Can you read the sarcasm? I bought a new xbox, but I should have bought a wii. I want to play Just Dance. This is totally stream-of-concience thought right now. No, I don't replace now with meow. Bleh. It's only 8. I'm gonna watch hulu videos now. Bye.

Facebook, squids, and a single roll

So today internet finally started working again. I hate Simpson internet. Surprisingly, that's all I can complain about lately. I've gotten over not having people to hang out with. It's not really that big of a deal as before. I know I could go hang out with people now, I just have no desire to. I'm just bored. Anyway...

I have to do some Facebook crap for class tomorrow, which I will be promptly ditching to go shopping with Mom and Jenna. Why, you ask? Because I wanna. That's right, in college, you can skip because you want to. I'm going Christmas shopping, which is quite exciting. Yay, Christmas (and people coming back) I can't wait for break. It will be awesome.

Today, I dissected... scratch that, watched someone dissect a squid (because I didn't want to do the work, and my lab partner is waaaaaay to good at stuff like that).

After that I rushed to work, and by rushed I mean I walked listening to fast tempo music. When I got there, Larry was cooking rolls. Suddenly, God performed a miracle, and Larry asked if I would like one fresh out of the oven, and he then proceded to give all the employees one. With angels playing in the background, the good night continued, and he COMPLEMENTED me. Ode to Joy started playing out of thin air, I kid you not. Best work ever! Also, it had nothing to do with the fact that Wes messed up a lot (okay, yeah it does).

Curry, nosebleeds, and normal activities

I just got back from watching Paranormal Activity 3, and it was alright, not something I would watch again. I was a little upset with plot holes (c'mon, you could just show your wife the footage. ) and the difficulty in the scares (I had to LOOK to find something that was scary, I almost missed like two things, Shawn had to point them out) but overall the movie was okay. I really don't like the low budget, shot-from-a-camcorder type of movie, especially when it's shot a-la Michael Bay (camera shakiness, not explosions), and the shots they set up were too elaborate to be scary. I would only rate the ending at a C, better than the rest, just for the sense of creepyness. I know how you guys think, so you'll all be terrified. It's a fun movie to take bets on when the cheap (and boy do I mean cheap...) scares will pop up.

I also ate Thai food tonight. I had the Red Curry, which consisted of soup with some veggies. I ate about 10 spoonfuls with vegetables, and then I almost vomited. I don't like Thai food. On the other hand, the ride there and back was fun, and I got to talk about horror movies at the restaurant.

And a girl had a nosebleed.

Me and Dustin's Politics discussion! Part 1?

5:01pm

Eh.

It does affect everyone.

Or atleast I think.

not to much... they're trying to make everyone equal? thats not gonna happen... they sound like commies to me..

They aren't trying to make everyone equal in that sense.

economically

isn't that what they did?

No they want to tax the rich more.

They still want capitalism, just to help fix the wealth gap.

ah.. i don't think that'll ever happen

No. Because all the rich people control everything.

yeah... because they worked their way up

NO. Some of them didn't, and are just rich because of stupid reasons, like Miley Cyrus.

she sings...

Or rich because their parents are.

And not well.

they inherit it

she still makes money on her own

and it shouldn't be any of our business what other people do with their money

but shouldn't they be taxed to the same extent we are? I don't think it's right to restrict how much their taxes can be

we're taxed on a percentage

they pay the same percent

the only thing we should change is no tax breaks for businesses

I think there should be tax breaks for small buisnesses creating jobs.

if i were rich and worked to earn my money by doing whatever it is i did, i wouldn't want poor people wanting to make me pay more because they think it's unfair

i don't believe that's true.. tax breaks for no one keeps it fair...

the government can't afford it currently anyway

http://www.politifact.com/truth-o-meter/statements/2011/aug/18/warren-buffett/warren-buffett-says-super-rich-pay-lower-taxes-oth/

By a rich person too.

so..

wait

i take back my so

Rich get tax loopholes.

hold on let me read

Ok

This article is primarily about the 1% they talk about in the protests

thats what i meant by tax break.. i didn't know what they were called, it should be a standard 30% regardless how much you make

I don't think that's fair though. We should definitely make exceptions for the people below poverty line, and the people in lower middle class.

The government shouldn't use taxes in a way that represses the lower classes.

i don't agree... most of them are pot heads living off of food stamps... i know it's not everybody, but a large majority are

like my uncle who's to lazy to get a job

I don't think thats altoghether true. And that's because the agencies aren't paid enough by the government to actually make sure the people need the assistance.

If the government spent more money on those agencies, they would save money.

they have no money

So how does the government get money? One step would be to make sure the rich are getting taxed appropriately.

it work be by making sure everyone is taxed equally...

20% is doable by most people, if it's not, they're not trying hard enough imo

by the way I'm imagining I'm having this conversation with a platypus.

i like platypuses

lol

Plus, don't forget that people have medicare, and social security to pay for too.

yup

people live way above their means

I'm not denying that America is the richest country, and it definitely could do more in the rest of the world.

Not to mention that poverty here can encompass like 90% of some African countries...

i'm just saying if people would stop blowing there money on crap they don't need, they would be fine living AND paying taxes

if they choose to waste their money, they shouldn't receive help

But can you expect people to just get by when everyone else is living to the extreme? Gah, I just wish socialism would work sometimes.

i don't

Why not? So much would get done. We wouldn't have to worry about destroying the planet, we wouldn't have poverty...

It sounds pretty good to me.

life's not fair, it never will be.. people just need to get over that... some people are delt better hands.. the only way to change that is by working hard at something.. and if they don't want to it's their choice

no one would have any motive to do better when everyone is eaqual

But can you really do anything if you "buckle down"? People in Africa can't become doctors unless they are really lucky.

equal*

walk to a city

find a job

idk

it's my best guess

but i doubt many even try

HOW? When they are in the middle of nowhere in Africa, how can they get a job? Everywhere in that area is poor.

It's rediculous to think that everyone can do anything when we weren't given the same opprotunities.

if i were in Africa, age 17, with no schooling, and i knew of everything going on in the outside would, i would not just be sitting around... i'd get the hell out of their

Okay, walk 500 miles over rough terain, with no shoes, no food, no clean water. Tell me how that works out.

The above was said in the nicest way possible.

would you rather live in dirt huts the rest of your life?

i wouldn't

i'd do it once and get it over with

they have animals

but it's just not possible! If everyone tried that, they would die.

to ride on

and carry things with

Not all of them!

it's not like they're but naked with no knowledge of how to survive

Do you think that they have horses or something? Maybe mules, but those can only go so far.

And they're a comoditie! The village essentially depends on them.

And there is no guarentee that a starved african child can find a job in the city. There's poor people there too fighting for jobs.

Music, classes, and a check

Today has been so horrible. I think I might just go to sleep. I listened to Stereo Hearts like 5 times today. Gym Class Heroes + Adam Levine = amazing. I want to do something, but I haven't cashed my check yet. I'm so tired. Bleh.

I want my sister's cat.

Wow.

So upon reflecting (because it sounds fancier than reading) I've lost a lot of my pep from when I started this blog. Whelp, that is going to change!

So this week hasn't been a total loss. I did have lots of fun doing things, like hanging out with Melanie, Alex, and Lois around Simpson, something we should definitely do again. Then, we have me calling out a girl in class, but that was really last week... but people gave me props for it. And I've only eaten alone once so far this week, because I now know Samuel has no friends either. While this is a sad development, I can't help but feel a little happy. It's nice to eat with people. I've also eaten with Joe and his girlfriend, Alex, too. That was fun, because Joe is really sloppy and Alex is a neat freak. Here's how it played out.

Joe: Wow, this cheeseburger is really good. *nom nom*
*Cheeseburger falls on table out of bun, Joe reaches to pick it up*
Alex: Nooo! You don't know where that's been!
Joe: ...On the table? *picks it up*
Alex: If you eat that, I'm never kissing you again.
Joe: Fine. *Sets it down on Alex's garbage plate*
Alex: This table is filthy! You don't know what kind of s*** has been on here! *Scrubs spot furiously.(Note: this is the only time I have ever heard her swear)

So yeah. I'm enjoying myself more I would say!

"Think carefully about what is right, and stop sinning. For to your shame I say that some of you don't know God at all." 1 Corinthians 15:34


 This is a verse I did for a paper a while back. I think this just shows people can fake religion all the time, and that you really need to both understand God on a personal level through faith, and a factual level through the bible. It's that second one that gets me...

I need to read my bible more.

Select friend to add Game Friend

Um.... I have no clue why that popped up in my history, but whatever, it's now my title randomly.

So these next two days are gonna suck. Sick today. Test tomorrow. Test Friday. Paper Monday. Ugh.

Oh, and Game Friend makes me think of Travis. And Game.

Don't Count Because I Will Too

Good news: Matthew comes home this Friday
Bad news: Carrie and Patrick both won't be here
Worse news: I don't want to say it.

I bought laundry detergent on Friday and still haven't used it... I went to Wal-Mart and bought a new game... I ate lunch with Joe and his girlfriend... I don't have work tonight...

I feel like I'm getting sick... I am too tired to get out of bed... I have work on Friday... And Saturday... And Sunday... And a paper due Monday...

I still don't want to say it.

This room is MINE!

So Wes moved out, and I have the room all to myself. Hello, constant Pandora streaming. Why, hi there additional desk to park my laptop. How do you do, not having to turn the t.v. on quietly at 8 in the morning because someone is asleep. Oh, I almost forgot about additional closet space. Oh, and how could I forget you, sleeping at 10 o'clock. Yeah, life is good.

So yesterday I went and played Magic (yeah, so what?) with some people in a fraternity over yonder by the baseball fields. One of the guys was in my class talking about it, and we started to discuss stuff, and he invited me over! Then I got called into work after 5 minutes. I want to kill Larry McConnel.