Day 3: Zombiesayswhat?

So Wes is moving out all of his stuff... I'm thinking about having a "My-room-is-free-of-a-really-annoying-person-who-cusses-way-too-much-and-likes-Rent, so-I'm-having-a-party-because-it's-obvious-that-I-don't-like-him-and-wanted-him-to-leave-in-the-first-place party in my room. I have a lot of free space now... and I can bring my xbox for I don't have to fear it getting stolen.

So, Zombies today was horrible, there are now 40+ zombies, of which I am not. But, I have to say, I like the zombie comraderie, they stick together. I wish I could say as much for the humans... but I digress.

Lastly, I don't want to get into a relationship, ever. They sound (and look) really complicated, and I don't think that I'm... smooth? no, more like I never understand how people are feeling. I interpret things wrong. Whelp, I'm going to bed with an incomplete paper due tomorrow... I have to wake up early...

Day 2: Where the Frick is the Bamboo?

So today I ventured out for class and saw no zombies. On my way back, I saw a stunned zombie (one that had been hit with a sock) and proceeded to be a 42 and stun him again. The mission was crazy! I was in a group of upper classmen and we had to find bamboo of all things. Apparently, Simpson's campus has only bamboo as building materials... So, I survived another day. I had to watch as many of my fellow humans were devoured. My team found 3 of the 5 stacks of bamboo, so I think were doing alright!

Back to real world stuff. I'm getting Matthew's iPod! I'm really excited. I don't know when it will be here, but I hope soon. Also, Wes is moving out this week! In two to five days, expect a room to yourself, with no annoying navy dropout who listens to Rent (ugghghhg) and country music. Tomorrow, GLEE!

Moonwalk Status: Not Good

Best Week Ever

By the end of the week, I won't have a roommate. Enough said. =D so happy!

Humans vs Zombies: Day 1

As I post this I am still human, however, I have to go all the way across campus soon. So far, I haven't seen any zeds (apparently short for zombie?) but I'm watching the zombie register (yeah, they have that) and so far the original zombie, whose pretending to be a human right now, hasn't killed. However, I'm still scared. I don't want to lose the first day... I bought 14 dollars worth of socks!

So the BtF concert last night was amazing! I was glad that I knew so many of the songs. I really liked it. So, that's pretty much it... Off to hunt!

Psychic

So the more I think about it, the more it makes sense. I think God has made me psychic. Last night at youth, I randomly thought of Matthew, and I wondered what he was doing for youth. Today, Matthew's talking about how he doesn't like it there and wants a christian college. I think we might be 11 month apart twins, because I swear I seem to know how you're feeling. It upsets me to see that you are having a tough time, and you are far away. I'm having a tough time, even with going to youth and seeing people. I can't imagine what it's like 24/7.

...

Wes likes Rent... Help...

Homecoming

So I totally thought that homecoming was this week. I was totally pumped to go to the dance, and I've been looking forward to it for the whole week. Sad face, as I was corrected at youth tonight. Also, the Pole Bash is this weekend, and I plan on stopping by Carrie, so let me know when I can come ok? Also, some exciting news, Wes might go into a fraternity, which would go uncontested by me, seeing as how every song lyric that comes out of his mouth is another brain cell committing suicide inside my head. I literally think every song is another 5 minutes shaved off my life, not to mention the 3 minutes of horror actually enduring the song. And his, "Yeah, what!" and "Take it b****!" are really annoying, not to mention tonight as I type this I'm being assulted by a Nickleback mashup. I. HATE. YOU. WES. Please go and drink away your college days at SAE. I'm begging.

NOOOOOOO!

My last musical defense has failed me now. Wes knows Christian music songs. I was listening to He Reigns, and he started singing and said, I know so many of these songs! Please, shot me. Luckily, I still have Break the Fall on him. Yeah, I guarantee he doesn't know that band! Whew, I think I'm okay. That, and some Chris Tomlin, he wont know. Fun fact, he is now spinning around in the middle of our room, trying to catch a fly. I think we hit the annoying stage... OMG what is that smell? It smells like baby diaper! Gag!

Question

Okay, so when I tell you I can't stand country music, what is your response? You all have known me for a while, so I would assume that you know how much I hate country. So if I were to, I don't know, say to my roommate that I didn't like country, would your first mother effing thought be to turn on the most horrible music in the world? I DON'T LIKE COUNTRY WES. I believe I have said this multiple times, and it most certainly doesn't give you the right to drown out my pandora (I don't have headphones because Jenna's kitten devoured them when I was sleeping) with your singing and a youtube playlist of your favorite annoying country songs.

Dear Wes,
        I wish you would have been born two centuries ago so that I could have a not-annoying-as-blank roommate. I hope you realize I'm going to cry and thank God when you go to work tonight. That, and smash your laptop. One more horrible country song about underage drinking, and you will see how true that threat was.
                                                                                               Sincerely (you better believe it),
                                                                                                                        Erick

Dear Wes,

I  CANNOT FOCUS WITH YOUR SINGING! IT'S SOOO ANNOYING AND DISRUPTING MY STUDYING! GAH!!!

                                That is all.
                                        Erick

Hey, hey you. SHUT UP!

Okay, so work is officially sucking. Wes started working there, and he is a major 42 at work. He and Cody talk about fun times they've drank, and tonight they told racist jokes forever. Now, you should know, racist jokes tend to tick me off, seeing as how I've been harassed a lot about it, and the fact it's just stupid to think of someone less just because of their skin color.

I'm glad Carrie isn't angry at me anymore! It was really depressing. But now I'm okay, and pumped for homecoming, and the dance. So, I'm sad to say that I do not have the skill to moonwalk well enough to do at the dance, but there's always prom! I really am excited, especially because I don't do anything here. I've... kinda shut down here. It doesn't help that my views seem to set me apart from everyone in my classes. Although, the teachers seem impressed with me. Anyway, it's too late for me to go look up a bible verse. I guess you can take this away from it.

"Give me your eyes for just one second, give me your eyes so I can see, everything that I keep missing,"

I need better vision to find my niche here, so I just gotta try.

IT

So today I went to IT and something funny happened. I haven't been able to get on my email here at Simpson, so I took it to them to fix. I got there, and handed over my laptop. The woman opened up the laptop, and I unlocked it. She, and the guy who was there, aww'ed. The picture I have set as my background is the same one for this site. They both looked, and the guy said, "That's a really nice group of friends. I'm jealous." and in my head, I thought Oh yeah. That's right you wish you were as cool as me! Anyway, my laptop was fixed (actually it was Google Chrome's fault...) and I came back to write this. In a little while, I'm off to lunch. I already missed a class this morning, but I'm doing alright. I have my lab today, which will suck. But right now, I want to talk about something else. I can't give all the details because it wouldn't be right, but...

Melanie is having a really tough time right now. I think we all need to take up her burden, because we are her friends. I'm not saying go over board, just float her a text. Ask her if she wants to talk. She's in our group, and we have to take care of her.

That is all. So, I'm off to eat pizza now.

And then... you bawl.

So I just reread all of your guys' blogs. And I cried again. I'm doing that a lot this year it seems. Anyway, we've all changed so much, it's scary.

To Matthew; I'd be lying if I said I didn't blame myself for your unhappiness. In all honesty, I think I caused your self-esteem issues by being an inconsiderate kid who picked on his younger brother. I love you so much, and I couldn't imagine what I would do without you. You have been with me, and you were the one I talked to about family stuff. I wish I could have protected you more. I'm sorry. But you are my best friend and I would honestly do anything for you. Please, if you need to, rely on me more. I don't want to find out something second-hand ever again.

To Carrie: You are my sister. There is no like involved. When did we become such good friends? I have no clue. Maybe my old self actually got something right; talking to you. You have helped me realize a lot of things, and I think you and Patrick will go far. Keep your relationship the way it is, and you might be on to something amazing. Also, stay strong in your beliefs. Don't take anything people tell you to believe as instantly right, unless you know in your heart that's what God wants. Being a Catholic has nothing to do with loving God and Jesus. Good luck in the play and I love ya!

To Ashley: you are my sister too. I can't imagine not having you to talk to about some things. You know, you help me by letting me help you. Don't ever let the world get you down, and if you ever need someone to talk to that won't judge, I'm always there for you, and you are a wonderful, beautiful person. I really would like to talk to you about a certain something if you have the time, because I feel like you knew first, and maybe understand better than I do. I love you and don't forget who you are and the amazing things you've done!

Moving on to people who don't read this blog...

To Shawn: You have become one of my best friends over the summer. I can't believe that we lost contact for so long, but I think you are slipping away again. I wish I could be with you to help you find what you want out of life. I really miss hanging with you.

To Austin: Really, the only reason we ended up friends was because we had mutual friends, kinda like Facebook, but in real life. I miss playing Yugioh with you, and I really hope you continue to make the right decisions in your life. I know this summer was hard on you, but forgive and forget. Just don't forget why you're here.

To Patrick: (P.S. Carrie I expect you to make him read this!) I had a great time hanging out with you over the summer. I really like you, and I take back what I said about flat billed hats if only not to include you. You are an awesome person, and I totally and wholly agree with you dating my sister. I hope we can get to be really good friends, especially because I think you are a really good Christian influence on me. Good luck in college!

To Melanie: Our friendship has accelerated quite rapidly since that day in February that you moved here. You thought I was weird, and I heard you were from the city and thought that you might be a new person to talk to about Glee. The more we talked, the more I grew to be friends with you. I know you are going through hard times, and I think you will be just fine. You don't know how many times I've spent praying that you would accept Jesus. I know you are close, and I don't want to push you. I feel like you are more spiritual than most Christians, you just don't realize it. You always ask really interesting questions, questions everyone can grow on.

To Chrissy: You kind of read my blog, but since school we haven't talked at like all. I know it's exhasting listening to all of my crap, which you probably haven't. But, just remember; I support you and James wholly, so don't hate on me! Not that you would anyway.

I know my blog isn't as artistic as Carries, or as poetic as Matthews. I don't have epic days, nor do I post interesting jokes. But, I know you guys read it, because you are my friends. I don't have to worry about you all judging my posts, or thinking about me negatively. So, what I'm trying to say is, thanks for everything.

"Be strong in the Lord and, never give up hope! You're gonna do great things, I already know! God's got his hand on you, so don't live life in fear!" High fives if you sang the rest of the line.

I promise this is the last one for the night. BTW can't wait for Glee next week (although I don't know if I should it's not very Christianly...) and for the homecoming dance, where I (hopefully) will have mastered the moon walk.

The Burns on my Hands

So, as an occupational hazard of running the fryer at a fast food restaurant, I have a TON of burns on my hands. Not serious, mind you, but just the, ouch-my-hand-bumped-up-against-something pain. So lately, I feel like this summer (yes, you all did summer posts, now sit though mine) was something really important. It was a life changing experience. Today, I looked back at my tweets from the past. They were really horrible, full of swearing and negativity towards people. I think that Tri-State had a big influence on me and Matt. I personally HATE the person that I was at the beginning of the summer. But I love who I turned out to be. I sometimes think, "Where would I be now if I hadn't had almost every day to spend with my friends?" At the beginning of the summer, I acted in a way that scares me now. I wanted to get high really badly. I told myself, it wouldn't be a big deal to just try it, and it doesn't say don't smoke pot in the bible! ...but I knew in my heart it was wrong. I wanted to play with a Ouiji board and talk to a spirit, but I knew that was wrong. It starts with simple things like that. You all saved me. Hanging out with you the way we did probably stopped me from doing a lot of bad things. In college, I would have swore all the time. I would have asked my roommate for someone with pot. I would have done stupid things that would have screwed up my life, and made everyone I care about upset. This summer was like a dream. You don't know how many times I stopped and thought, "Why can't this moment last forever?" From those sleepy midnights of hanging at Carrie's, to going Revive and watching those skits, and having life changing moments like when Shawn accepted Jesus or even just simple lets go swimming trips, whether at Ashley's, Carrie's, or Aquabi. I love everyone in this group and everything about this group. I know that for every hardship, for every burn on my hand, I had more priceless moments this summer than all of them put together.

Always be full of joy in the Lord, I say it again--rejoice! Philippians 4:4


I love you guys!

Happy Days!

So today was ok i guess, because of a girl, then another girl, then a third girl. sooooo

Girl #1: I sat by her at dinner. That is good enough to make my day better!

Girl #2: Had a problem that I could help with, made me think of mine less.

Girl #3: Had a different problem, helped a little, but we talked about other things too.

I have to say, I have some of the best friends ever. I'm trying to relax a little more, but this whole girl situation... I just wish it would sort out.  Good luck to me!

another one from john? Oh, whatever. Delete digital drama!

For God so loved the world that He gave his only begotten son... John 2:16

What is today? Ah, I don't care.

So today, like many before it, and many after it, was a bad day. It all started this morning with work. You see, yesterday I bought a pair of converse (I think...) and they are highly uncomfortable. So, I wore them to work because my other shoes were soaked by an unnamed source (trust me, you don't want to know). So for six hours, I stood, in incredibly uncomfortable shoes. Then, I came home (as in my house) only to find that my step-dad had spent over a hundred dollars in junk food, which was supposed to go to rent. Now, I'm juggling essentially three problems: Finances. Matt, if you are reading this, you really need to be on your own. Mom is going crazy. Also, I don't know what I should do. I think I really need to help my family right now. But I still have tuition to pay off, not to mention my student loans. Second, I have college as it's own problem. I'm not sure how long I can go in this place without anyone to sit by at lunch and assemblies and such. It's driving me crazy not having anything to do. Lastly, girl troubles. I'm still thinking about that A LOT. Why do things have to be so difficult all the time. I heard in a song the other day this: God, you must have a strong belief in me to put me what I'm going through. I guess I could take it that way. God thinks I'm amazing and can handle this. And if God thinks I can, so should I. I'm just a little hazy on the details.

Biology Notes Part 2 (because they didn't publish either)

Here's what I did in Wednesday's class:

9 minutes, c’mon clock.

Btw, your son lives an incredibly boring and sheltered life if all he watches is the History & Discovery channels.

How many times has he seen shark week?

Did he cry when Steve Erwin died?

I bet he did.

Slept in your bed?

Kid - Why, mommy why?

Mom - Because of natural selection honey.

You see, stupid people die, then don’t reproduce.

It’s the circle of life.

By the way, have I told you santa doesn’t exist?

Or that God doesn’t either?

Yeah, you are just going to stop existing.

You know your cat?

I ran it over.

It’s dead.

It will become soil.

Nope, no heaven.

Kid – Waaaaaaah!

Mom – I tell it how it is

*puts on sunglasses*

I’m a biologist.

*Kid cries and runs away*

And that’s how goths are created.

College Day 11-12: 100 views! (Take 2)

Simpson internet makes me want to break rich people's windows. Okay, I kind of want to do that already... but I had just written a really long post about what I did over the past 3 days, and it all got wiped out. So I'm not in the mood to write anymore. Summation quickly

Tue-did nothing but watch videos
(insert joke here)
Wed-kicked classes butts
(insert joke blah)
Today-work, more butt kicking
(Blah blah blah)
Half page rant about someone (of the girl variety)
Woe is me, so many things to be upset about

As you see, sarcasm has set in, so I'm moving on.

God's light came into the world, but people loved the darkness more than the light, for their actions were evil. 1 John 3:18

Night.

Post Rewind (College Day 8)

So I'm redoing all the posts I would have made, just because I personally want an account of what I did those days (obviously because barely anyone reads this). So, on Saturday, I worked at A & W my first day shift, with Larry. He wasn't there long, and Anita came back, so all was good in the land of root beer and coneys. Then, me, Matt, Lois, and Shawn all went to the movies, but not before we ate dinner at Rudy's with Cassandra (Chrissy and Heidi also popped in for onion rings). We watched Don't Be Afraid of the Dark, a really good flick if you want a funny scary movie (Chrissy, it was EXACTLY like Scream 4). Anyway, we watched that, and went home. Enough for that day... No, wait. I got asked to go to homecoming by Alex, and I of course said yes. See you there!

College: Day 10

So unfortunately I haven't blogged for like 4 days now because I had no internet. Mainly, I want to talk about three things. One: LARRY MCCONNEL. I want to kill that man so much! Anyway, he's my boss, and a complete moron. I've been working for 6 days now, I think I know how to open a bag of fries. Also, way to go messing up my orders all night, and then telling Anita (the other manager) I'm 'incompetent' and I need to be watched. Which brings me to my number two: the old me. All of the things I used to do (a.k.a. pre-tristate Erick) seem to be trying to resurface again. Being surrounded by all of the cussing, and the dirty jokes is taking a toll on my self-identity, and I'm trying to fight it so badly. The other day I caught myself thinking I should just give in and swear, because it would make college better. Why did I think this when I know it's not true? Bleh, to philosophical for me to ponder at 12:30 ish. Last but not least is the thing that everyone probably wants to hear. There's a girl I like, and you all know her. I really, really like her, probably more than any girl ever. But, there's a catch, like there always is. She isn't good for me, and I've been telling myself I don't like her for sometime now. Do you think I'm saying like a lot? But, anyway, I'm trying to be a good influence, because I really want to like her. But, the thing is, we won't go out or anything. I'm a sissy. Plus, once upon a time when she was new, she said she didn't date guys like me, because she has standards. Rough huh? Girls, proceed to blow up my phone with the inevitable, OMG I knew it!'s because I know they're coming.

You have love in the spirit Colossians 1:8


I hope it's enough...

College: Day 7

So, I'm blogging from Carries right now. I'm finally home for the weekend, and it feels sooooo good. Anyway, here's my random Biology 110 rant (that I did instead of notes)

Really? I thought college was supposed to be different! I learned all of this biology crap in school! BTW props to Mr. Burrell, for saying stimulus and response instead of react to environment. That will be the only time you hear that from me. I already know cells have fricken membranes! Ok, the eukaryotic I knew, but forgot about until you asked which was which, but still, I feel like I’m back in a Kelso class. What are organelles? I wasn’t taught that in 6^th grade! Oh, wait. Bleh, this is dumb. I do not like hearing this in college. I came to learn stuff, not the same ol’ same ol’. Oh, DNA and genes… I feel like I’ve heard this before somewhere… Oh yeah! ALL OF HIGH SCHOOL. No, viruses aren’t alive, they can’t reproduce. Freshman year, man, freshman year. NO WAY. My parents gave me my genes! Wow. Mind blown. 4 years ago. I really, really hope that this gets better. Positive and Negative feedback…check. Already covered. Your uterus keeps contracting and contracting until it bursts out! Nice example for positive feedback. Binomial nomenclature? Check. Kingdom phylum class order family genus species. Beat you there. What is this Domain nonsense! I protest. Domain Eukaryotic, Bacteria, and Archaea? What the fudge on ice cream is this! Darwin, blah blah, evolution, blah blah. I’ve learned one thing, but that’s it.

Nice, right? Anyway, so I'm really happy right now. It's so good to be home. 

Hatred stirs up dissension, but love conquers over all wrongs. Proverbs 10:12

Save Me, I'm Wrong! (College: Day 6)

Bleh. Summation of the day. Anyways, so it strikes me I know no one anymore. I don't talk to anyone as intense as we used to. We don't hang out. The only thing connecting us right now is skype, and youth group for some of us.

Depression. Severe, utter. Black hole of nothingness.

Classes are fun, look for the positive! Bleh, I don't want to right now. I'm in a really cruddy mood, with nothing to do.

Boredom is just depression in disguise really. That's all it is.

Don't get me wrong. I am really happy, just the gravity of this whole college thing is hitting hard tonight. If you were wondering, I'm still eating alone. But I usually am in there only for a while.

If you haven't gotten it yet, I'm conflicted. It's crazy being in these types of situations.

Bleh.

I'm not in the mood, but it wouldn't be a blog if I didn't do it.

Many are the sorrows of the wicked, but he who trusts in the Lord, loving and kindness shall surround him. Psalm 32:10


Ok, that should make me better, but it doesn't feel like it. Maybe I just need to read my bible more...
The thing is, I know I'm wrong to be all depressed and what not, but I don't feel in control of anything.

Of course, I'm not in control. I know that. But I'm telling myself I don't. I'm sick of seeing everyone act however they want, while I'm sitting here doing the right thing. I'm sick of getting put in difficult situations.

But I'm wrong again, and I know that. I'll pay any cost, to save me from being so blue. Show me what I'm looking for.