Bleh. Summation of the day. Anyways, so it strikes me I know no one anymore. I don't talk to anyone as intense as we used to. We don't hang out. The only thing connecting us right now is skype, and youth group for some of us.
Depression. Severe, utter. Black hole of nothingness.
Classes are fun, look for the positive! Bleh, I don't want to right now. I'm in a really cruddy mood, with nothing to do.
Boredom is just depression in disguise really. That's all it is.
Don't get me wrong. I am really happy, just the gravity of this whole college thing is hitting hard tonight. If you were wondering, I'm still eating alone. But I usually am in there only for a while.
If you haven't gotten it yet, I'm conflicted. It's crazy being in these types of situations.
Bleh.
I'm not in the mood, but it wouldn't be a blog if I didn't do it.
Many are the sorrows of the wicked, but he who trusts in the Lord, loving and kindness shall surround him. Psalm 32:10
Ok, that should make me better, but it doesn't feel like it. Maybe I just need to read my bible more...
The thing is, I know I'm wrong to be all depressed and what not, but I don't feel in control of anything.
Of course, I'm not in control. I know that. But I'm telling myself I don't. I'm sick of seeing everyone act however they want, while I'm sitting here doing the right thing. I'm sick of getting put in difficult situations.
But I'm wrong again, and I know that. I'll pay any cost, to save me from being so blue. Show me what I'm looking for.
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